Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Out of Body Experiences

So since I've had this life altering surgery and have begun to start to emerge from my shell into the sunlight, I've started having really funny experiences.

I'm down 80 pounds (yea, me!), and recently took the plunge and bought some new clothes. I debated what to buy, what size to buy and how much of any one thing to get. The addage is that what fits today will hang on you tomorrow.

I opted for going 2 sizes smaller. My pre surgery clothes, pants, capris and shorts to be exact were already falling off me as it was, so I knew I could manage 2 smaller sizes. I'm happy to report that my new pants and capris are all fitting well, I even realized this morning that new pants were already starting to feel like the pup-tents my old pants were doing a few weeks ago!

I'm taking baby steps with the shirts, I think the emotional need I have to not feel constrained in my clothes will be an issue I have to deal with for a while. I tried a few shirts on over the weekend when I was out searching for new shoes (Don't get me started on the shoe issue.. my feet have well and truly shrunk!).. Anyway, I digress..

I'm between 2 sizes in shirts, and that is great as well! I tried the smaller size on, it fit, and wowzah! I got to meet my waist again for the first time in a while! I've always loved my waist, the hips I could have done without, but my waist has always been something I've not hated!

So, about the out of body experiences. I find myself walking through the grocery story, humming a tune, feeling absolutely fabulous about my new self! I know people may be looking at me thinking "Hey, look at that big girl".. but since I know how far I've come, and how much I've lost, I feel like I'm just very tiny! I don't remember feeling this light the last time I weighed this much, which I have estimated is about 10 years or so ago.

I find myself looking at my wrists, they seem so very small and delicate these days, and when I put my hand to my collerbone, it feels positively boney! I do love all this.

I love feeling light, and free and giddy.

After all, I am a giddy girl!

1 comment:

Dijea said...

YEA! Congratulations.